Too much

These days are being tough. Not being able to see your other half is hard. I know reality is what it is, but despite that, I feel sad and nervous.

I’m not that kind of person that often expresses how she feels, but this time I feel like I need to do so.

On the one hand, I always try that things go out well, or as best as possible. But on the other hand, when I see things don’t turn out the way I expected, I feel low of energy. This may be due to the fact that I’m very strict with myself.

While I write this, I feel how my heart beats and pumps the blood to the rest of the body. Sometimes faster, sometimes slower, indicating that I’m a little anxious at this precise moment.

I’m sad because it’s been a long time since we don’t see each other and I miss him. I know we will soon be together but not all days are the same and not always do you feel the same way. Sometimes I feel like crying, but I tell myself not to do so. Instead of that, I write down how I feel.